I'm Back

Wow.. at last I able to push my self to write something and updating my blog. I’m so stuck with busyness…and I’m so tired.. I’m now working 7 days a week.. and it is so damn tiring.

I would like to imagine myself taking a break going for vacation, walking along a sandy beach, looking at the ocean… listening to the wind, wave and bird singing. If only I could do that. Kalau tak dapat jalan dekat beach.. pon dapat take 1 full leave n relax at home, I dah really appreciate.

The last time when I was so stressful chocolate is the answer. Not surprising, really, because most woman do like choclate. Many times when I think of giving myself a treat, I buy chocolate wait until everyone felt asleep I will light up candles in my house and quietly sat on the sofa eating chocolate by myself.. Chocolate is at the top of the list of guiltily hedonistic pleasures. You want to indulge yourself..... Eat some chocolate! You surrender to the decadence. You enjoy the moment and only feel guilty after all the evidence is gone. But the mood of eating chocolate to release my tensions seems to be faded, chocolate is no longer enough, I’m dying for more… but what??

My mother was very kind (with her tight schedule) enough to help me taking care of my two kids when I was so busy preparing my Ph D. proposal.. It was during school holiday.. when my mom took all my kids to Sungai Petani, Baling and straight away to Kota Bharu Kelantan. At least I did not feel that guilty for not taking my kids for holiday. I got a week for my self.. Thought of being romantic with my husband because the kids are not around, but we end up… arriving at home at 11.00 pm everyday, washing all the abju, kemas rumah ironing..and many more. But we able to steal some times by going for Indiana jone smovie and going for a late walk at up town, damansara. I’m so great full because my husband was so understanding and patience with me for the last 3 month. Thank God that I am bless with a wonderful and loving husband. He helps me a lot.. while I’m concentrating on my PhD. Proposals.

And know… after submitting the proposal I wish that I could take a break…

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